Went to the movies with some friends and had some fun !

Today was supposed to be a good day, and it was. All I know for certain is I love to dress up as a woman.Ĩ2/365 After 5 years, its still eating me apart I love the idea of being a man that plays a role as a woman. I’m full of conflicting desires, gender confusion and a wish to be a bit of a performer. I am ware though I’m just acting and engaging in illusion and that does hold great appeal to me as I do know that part of the thrill of trying to be a woman is knowing I am really a man! For a few hours I have no desire whatsoever to be male and adore the role of a female. It used to worry me the way I was ken to ditch my masculine self and genuinely want to be rid of it as I transformed myself into a woman. It’s intersting how as men we are affected by our genitals and yet when I cross-dress I am always keen to lose them…not very manly but then I am trying to be a woman. The excitement was tempered by the reality of not having those breasts I so dream of and knowing that my male genitals were still present despite being tucked and taped. Of course am not going to post any naked images but it was as close as I’ve ever felt to being a woman. I posed completely nude and experienced a liberation I had never known. I took this self portrait in a rather daring (well for me) session where I attempted to try and look female by only wearing makeup and a wig and shaving my body. It is more of a positive experience than a negative one. Cross-dressing s a rather fabulous pastime and I am delighted to be a transvestite despite some of the aspects that cause me concern and angst. I enjoy plucking my eyebrows and I am always excited and thrilled to apply makeup t my face and don a wig. I absolutely love shaving my legs, chest and arms. All I can do is engage in impersonating the female gender and I do rather enjoy this performance challenge and the effort that goes into to trying to feminise my male body.

I often wish I had a female body, to be smooth and hairless with soft skin and at times my dismay at not having breasts or female curves can cause me some emotional pain. I do not succeed as it is difficult to escape one’s male body and all that goes with being a man but I am keen on occasion to try and escape my physical gender. If I was honest I d feel more comfortable as a woman and I enjoy trying to make myself feminine. I am now content with my male life but do need my moments of release when I can try to be a woman. As a young man I yearned to be a female and despite settling into my male life that dream surfaces on occasion, often without warning. I know I’m a transvestite but I do have a deep desire to be female lurking within me. I do love to try and be a woman when possible.

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